a sad gambling day

Today i gambled in midvalley with few of the workers. Honestly i am so sad and depressed . why ? Its because i lost rm 80 bugs when i was in the lead of rm 100 from the banker. Its my first and biggest defeat in my personal black jack gambling history . I am so so sad .. help me !!!

btw there is this girl that had always been cheering up my life this past few months. I am so so happy !!! I would like to say thank you to her for always being there for me when i am inneed of someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry at. The best part is i think she is hot =p

Another sad thing is that the fact arsenal lost yesterday away 1-0 to psv eidhoven. I really hope they win big at home. Come on arsenal !! dont let you fans down. I really hope robin van parsie will recover from his injury and team up with henry to keep arsenal's spirit up. Cesc fabregas and Thoman rosicky ; both of you are the arsenal current hero. Keep it up with you consistency . Alexeder Hleb ; keep up your good effort . Adebayor ; you are the worst striker in this season arsenal had ever had. Julio Baptista and William Gallas ; both of you need to get adjusted to the EPL kindda play ..


Go arsenal !!! let us move to victory . We can win big at home !!! have faith in king henry !! =)

It had been ages since the last time my last post

Honestly it had been several months since the last time i've ever posted anythng in this blog of mine.Today let me tell you why ?

There are 3 reasons why i didn't post anything in this lil blog of mine :

1st - This blog of mine is the journal of pain coz i record all the pain i went through with its specific date and time.

2nd - the password to this blog is linked to someone who has no meaning anymore in my life.

3rdly - Its just pain pain pain pain and pain again ...

Honestly today i can say that i am a different man .My perspectives about life , my needs , my goals had totally changed.I am so happy. Life had been going on the way i want it to be . Its just one thing different from the past , she ; the women i refer to in my previous posting is not in my life anymore. Its true what people used to say , in life at times you need to sacrificed things you want the most.

I am in the situation whereby i need to regain my confidence that i've lost all these years. I need to be who i was before and not who i am today.Several months i've been searching for the right method that i can implement to regain my confidence and others respect.I might not know if i am fully recovered from the breakdown i've went through but i could feel that their are some positive improvement towards recovery.

My propher once said that there is no point hating people who hates you or your enemies.In the matter of fact ,I would like to say thank you to her for making me a stronger man. Thanks to her for voicing out her special request to me by asking me to get out from her life for good. I would like to thank her friends for supporting her and asking her to get out from my life. I really hope the All Mighty will know how to bless you people either in todays world or in the afterlife.

Last but not least i would like to thank her for prooving all my perception about love and women rite. thanks for making me a new me. God bless you =)